Day 1 of no FACEBOOK!

Today was great. I was a little lonely with it just being me and the puppies but it was great. I got up around noon, took the puppies outside for their walks/potty, went to Wal - Mart (I hate shopping there but they had some really cute puppy toys for Christmas), stopped got myself some lunch and came home to spend the rest of the day baking brownies and watching Desperate Housewives! 

Eventful right?

I was doing a lot of thinking today. Some good and some bad, a lot of it about my relationship status. I feel like at this point in my marriage I shouldn't give up and walk away. On the other hand, we have been growing apart for a while and it feels like thats already been done. I don't want to go into much detail because this should and will be a private matter (although I do ask people some times for their opinions I try not to give away too much of what I am thinking/feeling). But lately, I have been second guessed every action I have ever made. Did we get married too young? Should we have waited? Was it really worth losing probably one of the greatest friends ever? The answers always change, yes, no, maybe, yes, no, maybe... yes. This is the problem. All of these questions are basically pretty much "What ifs." I don't want to live in a world of "what if", I want to know! 

Now I understand I can't change the past, I can however learn. I can learn to listen. I can learn to ask for help when I don't know something. I can learn how to be a better friend. I can learn how to be a better person all around. Part of my 2013 resolutions is to better myself (this will be another blog sometime this weekend about my RESOLUTIONS!). I still have a lot of learning and growing to do. 

If you know my mom, go wish her a Happy Birthday :) 

Merry Christmas Eve everyone.