Sunday, February 26, 2012

Welcome back, special.

Hmm. Well it has only been about a year since the last time I actually blogged and shared with the world.. :/ and a whole bunch has changed. My old blog was "An Airman's Princess." I deleted it because I am no longer just the Airman's Princess, I am the Airman and that changed a lot of things.

I separated from my family and my loved one. I am not enjoying my new life one bit besides what might be coming in the future. And I say might because everything is so uncertain. It is all so new for me still and I don't know how to react to it. Sometimes I think I do more harm than good and it bothers me.

I honestly think silence does more harm than good for me also, causes me to really think about everything going on in my life and really have a heart to heart with myself. Especially when it comes to love, family and the future. I see things I don't like about myself and want to change. I see people in my life that I need and want here with me and it just hurts.

To be honest I have no idea where I am going with this blog. Thought I would of added a few pictures before I posted but my MacBook is special and I am still learning about it. BLEH.. and I have stories from the New Year's Eve Party I went to at my friend's house, my Leave I took in Decemeber, my semi new life in Ohio.. But I have no idea where to begin..